natasha 小学校の頃、20分かそこらの休憩時間に運動場に飛び出してドッジボールをやったよね。という話が定期的にTwitterで持ち上がり、みんな昔を懐かしむ。
私は小学生の一時期、友達がいなかった。もともと一人しかいない友達と仲違いした。人見知りの私は誰にも話しかけられなかった。休憩時間、私は行く場所がなかった。(晴れている日の20分休憩は外で遊ばなくてはならない決まりだった) それで、私はひとり飼育小屋でうさぎを見ていた。小屋の網の隙間から雑草を差し込むと、うさぎは器用にそれを食べた。
永遠のように長い20分だった。
(うさぎが永遠に草を食べていたのが救いだった。一羽が去るともう一羽がやって来た。全部で5羽いた。)
若い人に伝えたい。永遠のようにつらい時間もやがて過ぎてしまうものだと。
年老いた人はいつもそう言う。現在進行形のこの苦しみの時間の中にいないくせに。
そうだね、ごめんね。でも、生きてね。生き延びて。
When we were in elementary school, we used to run out to the playground and play dodgeball for a 20-minute recess. This is a topic that comes up regularly on Twitter, and everyone gets nostalgic for the old days.
For a period of time in elementary school, I had no friends. I originally had only one friend and we fell out. I was shy and could not talk to anyone. During recess, I had nowhere to go. (On sunny days, we had to play outside during the 20-minute recess.) So I was alone by the hutch watching the rabbits. When I inserted a weed through the netting of the hutch, the rabbit dexterously ate it.
It was a long 20 minutes, like an eternity.
(It helped that the rabbits were forever eating grass. When one rabbit left, another one came. There were five rabbits in total.)
I want to tell young people that even the hardest time, which seems like an eternity, will eventually pass.
Old people always say that. You are not in this time that is not passing.
I know. I’m sorry. But you have to live. Stay alive.